my self inflicted challenge.

My church has been very helpful to my spiritual recovery . thank you for this .but I can see it's not over and it looks like it's going to be more of a life style than just a change for a short time.I've fallen under hard times , and with those hard times have lost the help of people I had thought were my friends . On top of that my time line with me working on my second home has dragged me into this slump in the housing market .Through these challenges my faith has groan and my bond with my mom & sister has also become stronger & more important.The services that I have attended have reminded me of this . After all that I've been through I realize that I need to help others in order to help myself. I don't exactly know how just yet but I'm sure it will present itself eventually.I am lonely and that is partly the reason I would like to help people in need . At this level they are so responsive to kindness & so grateful for receiving it.The fear is when you're kind and people don't appreciate it . Or the opportunistic behavior thats imbedded in our culture,leads to bad behavior of some kind.Why can't we be good to each other ? Just simple consideration and kindness.Thank you.