LIFESTYLE
EACH DAY I REGRET MY PAST CHOICES OF DEALING, USING AND A LIFE SHAPED AROUND DRUGS. I WAS TOTALLY MESMERIZED FROM AGE 13 TO HAVE MONEY POWER AND RESPECT IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD. NOW AT 31 WITH 2 CHILDREN BY 2 DIFFERENT RELATIONSHIPS I FEEL OVERWHELMED LOOKING BACK @ MY ADOLESCENCE. FROM 4 YEARS OF STATE PENITENTARY 5 YRS OF PAROLE @ 19. I TRY TO FIND MY NEW DIRECTION IN LIFE I CHOOSE TO BE A NEW CREATION WITH GOD'S LOVE MY MOTIVATION. I USED AND ABUSED WOMEN TRYING TO FULFIL A VOID WITHIN ME BE SUCKED IN AND MANIPULATED BY SATAN (DISGUISED IN RAP MUSIC LYRICS, MOTION PICTURE THEMES) WHOM I CHOSE TO EXPOSE TODAY AS THE WICKEDNESS THAT POSSESSED ME DURING MY IGNORANCE. AS I STILL STRUGGLE TODAY NOT WITH ADDICTION OR BEFUDDLEMENT BUT FINDING WHERE MY PLACE IS BE IN GODS KINGDOM HERE ON EARTH. I AM A CHILD OF GOD. AMENPrayers And Encourgements
i know exactly what you mean, im only seventeen but since i was twelve to when i was sixteen my life was consumed my drugs, sex, and trying to feel numb when i was sixteen i finally began to see God after i began attending church at Central but i sometimes still struggle with the guilt of what i put my family and friends through and i wonder what my life would be like if i never would have done that stuff
but i have come to the conclusion that its going to make me a better person in the long run and its going to help me fulfill gods purpose
and i know that its the same for you too, everything you have been through is going to help you be the person God wants you to be
but i have come to the conclusion that its going to make me a better person in the long run and its going to help me fulfill gods purpose
and i know that its the same for you too, everything you have been through is going to help you be the person God wants you to be
Posted by ~understandingcompletley~ on 1/31/2008 @ 9:58 AM
God Bless You. You are a child of the Most High. It is by his grace and mercy you are saved. Let your amazing transformation be a testimony to those who are where you were. Keep the Faith.
Posted by Tara on 2/20/2008 @ 12:20 PM
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