eating disorder

I have an eating disorder and it has helped me to lose all the weight I had.I say had now because I'm a 5ft female that weighs 97lbs from 160lbs. Congrats would be in order if now I wouldn't be obsessed about every calorie I put in my mouth, which in turn makes me binge and of course purge... and it's getting worse everyday. I want to stop, but the big thing about stopping is that I may gain weight, and even the thought of tipping the scale at 100lbs sends me in to hysteria. I wish there was somewhere to turn, and I wish I was strong enough to turn to it.