masturbation and sexual lusts

For years I have struggled with masturbation and sexual lusts that ranged from the mundane to perverse. I could not stop masturbating through either of my marriages and it took more and more to get me to the point of release that eventually I had to actually go and try the things that I fantasized about to get that rush. I was addicted to sex the same as a person gets addicted to booze or drugs. Sex provided that rush that I thought I had to maintain to be happy. I finally allowed God to show me my problem and opened the door for Him to fix the problem...although sometimes I slip backwards, He is there for me and forgives and heals.

Some days are better than others...some days I remember to rely on His strength, and some days I don't...and try to fight on my own (always a losing battle).

Through the grace of God, I have not been physically sexually active since November, 2007, although I have and still do struggle from day to day with the mental lusts. When I am closest to the Father I don't struggle as much, but when I am not as close, I do. I am just thankful for His Grace and His constant forgiveness....