Struggles with depression and anxiety

Hi all.

I am a Christian with bipolar disorder. I am currently pretty stable, with occasional anxiety. I try to give it to God, but seems Xanax and God work best together.

Several years ago, I experienced a mood swing and left my marriage of 23 years. I also left my 17 year old daughter with her father. Today, that is the greatest anguish of my life. I miss my family so much. Now my daughter is 23, but I feel I missed so much time together with my family that I will never retrieve.

I know that God is building my relationships back with both of them, and is giving me new friendships at the church I attend.

The main thing I want people to know about being bipolar is that I want all the same things other people do out of life. It's just that I have been given extreme moods which make life more difficult.

I just want love and acceptance, and to give it back in exchange.

God bless anyone who takes the time to read this post. And God bless the pastor at the church I attend.