Wow! it just keeps coming! One bad thing after ano

And people keep telling me I'm so strong. What? I feel like I'm not even alive. But I do, I just keep going. So much bad stuff I don't even want to really take the time to write it all down. I'll only get depressed. I just don't know how to make it stop! I feel like I'm not living the life I want to live. Like life is controlling me. And I try and keep my faith and give it all up to him and ask him for his guidance. I don't know maybe I'm so crazy on this roller coaster that I don't even see or hear him. I'm so tired of living like this.